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Son of a…

I made a new goal today. My goal is to start cussing more.

Yes, you read that right.

I realized today that my inner me and my outer me are a little out of sync. My inner me cusses like a sailor and my outer me cringes at the utterance of most swear words.

My internal voice has had the vocabulary of a Hell’s Angel since my early teenage years, but rarely does it break free and slide past my lips. I am sure most (with the exception of a couple of friends from my middle school years) would be surprised by this. Even my husband will be surprised by this.

Things are about to change, damnit!

I have good intentions with this resolve. I figure if I release a little bit of the steam once in awhile it won’t build up to an onslaught of profanity worthy of a college football tailgate party inside my head.

The other day, In a moment of extreme frustration, I let a word slip (twice! Oops.) that I abhor. It is one I have made a major stink about when Brett has let it fly so he seemed more than a little stunned when it flew out of my mouth. And then out it flew again. It was probably the first time he heard me use it. (If only he had known how common it was inside my head, he may have recovered his speech quicker!)

So here I go. My little experiment might result in an even more abject inner dialogue, but “Hear! Hear!” for good intentions!

  • shelli

    ha ha ha! That is so funny! I cannot imagine that you think those words and I really can't imagine that you say them! But, if it's true then you are more human than I've known and how refreshing of a thought that is!

    This is especially funny to me because yesterday I said “hell”. I don't know where it came from- it just slipped out. I was humiliated. Kaden looked at me astonishingly and then started laughing his head off! Ben joined in and I was surprised that they thought it was funny, but at least it didn't lower their love of me. I, unlike you, am hoping to not do it again, but I will admit, it is kind of fun sometimes!!!

    • http://whim.nordquist.org Kim Nordquist

      Shellie, I may have worried a few in-laws and ward members with this post so I should admit it was a bit tongue-in-cheek. Your ears are still safe around me. But I DO swear much more in my head than I do out loud so it got me thinking about it after I let loose this week (surprising even myself) and I wondered if it would keep my mind a little more G rated if I just let one slide once in awhile. It was worth pondering anyways.

  • http://www.becomingsomething.com Natasha

    Step one: Spell your swear words properly. It's “dammit”. Because even though damn has an N at the end, “damnit” makes it look like “dam nit” which is what I was saying when my kids had lice recently. ;-P

    In other cussy news, my Captcha word on Facebook was just “Frick”, but I knew what it really wanted to say…. (Darn. THAT should have been my tweet.)

  • kathleen

    Welcome Welcome , Its good to know that u are more like all as other inner and outer not in sync cussers of the world.. hehehe..

  • kathleen

    Welcome Welcome , It's good to know that you are more like all us other inner and outer non in sync cusser of the world are.. Hehehe…

  • Dad

    I hope you picked them up in the movies and at school and not from home. I have always tried to say my swear words in secret, with maybe a few little slips.

    • http://grandmahenke.com Grandma

      Ya right … Mr. Not Swear King!

  • http://grandmahenke.com Grandma

    Oh my goodness! I can only wonder what the word was that came forth twice! I am going to have to talk my mind into accepting this new Whim at the beach in just over THREE WEEKS … but things are different there. It is so relaxing and fun that those naughty words will be lost. Start packing! By the way, I think everybody has head banging swear words at times. Maybe that's what causes our headaches. Love you!

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can't say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn't the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can’t say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn’t the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can’t say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn’t the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can’t say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn’t the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can’t say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn’t the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can’t say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn’t the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.

  • Jana Rasmussen

    LOL! Kim I have to say that I remeber our m iddle school years with fondness. =) Yes we did have a language that young ladies should never have. I can’t say that mine has been totally rained in, (do to seven years in construction) but it is nothing like it was. We grow up, and realise swearing isn’t the cool thing to do, but sometimes there is just no other word that expresses the way I feel.